Further more to the post I attempted a few days ago!!
I used to be able to let words flow,
Sit and let my fingers let go, releasing pain, releasing emotion,
Tears would fall, blurred visions, typing not perfect,
yet it was my safe space, hidden for so long,
I braved my soul and opened my door, knowing it’s was a risk,
Hoping beyond hope that the negative would stay hidden,
Hoping people who hated would be strong to scroll on by,
Instead, fast the hate flowed into my inbox,
My memories glamorising suicide,
My pain encouraging suicide,
My blog a fiction, a novel, a story of nothing more then imagination,
My fingers rest now, my tears hide in shame,
My safe space tainted,
I took the risks, I payed the price,
The story of my life,
Every move I make the wrong choice,
I fear my past, I do not fear my future,
I fear how the future will play out,
I fear how I will get my path to be one of peace and calm,
I fear now though, to write further, afraid of offending others,
Afraid of being seen as encouraging the path of hell,
Fearful of opening my inbox,
To be told, The past I see, the past I feel,
Is nothing more then fiction.
Has my past really been one of reality crossing fiction,
Was my childhood one of dream’s and nightmares,
I struggle today to know the reality,
Sitting, feeling fine, then suddenly, nothing feels real,
Nothing is right, Nothing normal, yet it is.
I am confused, I don’t know any more,
I fear what is to come next,
Real or Not, I fear the tomorrow,
I am not afraid to say I am afraid
peacefullyerratic.com 
Stay strong stay focus and trust your beliefs they are true xx take care
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This is the one thing I truly hate about people, you were trying to reach out and explain the way you feel and people shoot you down for it, be that on your personal or business pages, I’ve seen the messages and comments from these low lives (initials being NJE, VM, DB and GM amongst others, they deserve to hang for their hate towards you and your husband) and it’s truly sickening , they expect people to suffer, cope and tolerate pain in the same ways they do, newsflash for those idiots, everyone deals with these things in a multitude of different ways. Please do not change who you are, you are a truly amazing person and someone I hold closely as a friend, please whatever you do don’t stop posting your blogs as it’s helped me understand how others deal with pain and grief, some of your posts have made me openly weep which never happens.
Please just because someone gets offended, don’t change who you are just to satisfy their insecurities, you are your own individual, you be you!
Sorry for the extremely long reply to your blog entry
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