https://youtu.be/35rT3J9kKYQ Surrenderyou still reach for me half asleepbefore reality settles inlike your heart still lives somewheremine no longer knows how to reach and I lie awake beside youstaring at the dark againwondering when survivalbecame the shape we started living in you tell me you miss me latelywhile I’m still lying next to youand I don’t… Continue reading Surrender
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Dear Husband
https://youtu.be/Aekn1S2IKhQ Dear Husband Somewhere along the way,your need to be wantedbecame louderthan my need to feel safe beside you. And I don’t think you ever noticedthe exact moment I started disappearing. Not all at once.Not dramatically.Just slowly. A thousand tiny cutsdisguised as passing comments,wandering attention,and apologiesthat only lasted long enoughfor the cycle to begin again.… Continue reading Dear Husband
I was never taught how to be a daughter, my mother unable to understand how to be a mother herself, my path grew from here into one where any role I had, became impossible to navigate. I failed as a daughter, I failed as a sibling.... I grew up without them around me like a… Continue reading
The Distance That Grew Without Warning
Our youngest, our baby girl, shes 11 now, We feel we are starting to loose her and it hurts more then words can say. When she want into care she was a carefree happy child, relaxed, a pleasure to be around, loved to read, loved to sit and curl up under a blanket for cuddles,… Continue reading The Distance That Grew Without Warning
The Work You Can’t Measure
Sat down with a coffee day, and I felt it — that deep, tired ache in your chest when you’ve done everything right and still feel like it’s not enough. So today, I want to speak about a different path yet linkI rarely speak of the situation with social services here, . Nor about court… Continue reading The Work You Can’t Measure
Miss you
A while back I started to blog my childhood, I touch now on a path that causes me tears, I have others but this is the strongest in emotions Saturday August 18th 2001 My father left this world, a day I will never forget, Tuesday August 18th 2020, I finally was able to say *hello*… Continue reading Miss you
I am not afraid to say I am afraid
Further more to the post I attempted a few days ago!! I used to be able to let words flow, Sit and let my fingers let go, releasing pain, releasing emotion, Tears would fall, blurred visions, typing not perfect, yet it was my safe space, hidden for so long, I braved my soul and opened… Continue reading I am not afraid to say I am afraid
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