https://youtu.be/35rT3J9kKYQ Surrenderyou still reach for me half asleepbefore reality settles inlike your heart still lives somewheremine no longer knows how to reach and I lie awake beside youstaring at the dark againwondering when survivalbecame the shape we started living in you tell me you miss me latelywhile I’m still lying next to youand I don’t… Continue reading Surrender
Tag: healing
Dear Husband
https://youtu.be/Aekn1S2IKhQ Dear Husband Somewhere along the way,your need to be wantedbecame louderthan my need to feel safe beside you. And I don’t think you ever noticedthe exact moment I started disappearing. Not all at once.Not dramatically.Just slowly. A thousand tiny cutsdisguised as passing comments,wandering attention,and apologiesthat only lasted long enoughfor the cycle to begin again.… Continue reading Dear Husband
When Doing the Work Still Isn’t Enough
I’ve avoided talking about this publicly for a long time, not because I’m ashamed, but because it’s complicated. But so many people keep asking what happened, and I think it’s time to explain what I can.I won't deny when our mini humans were placed into care, life felt impossible at times, but we had reached… Continue reading When Doing the Work Still Isn’t Enough
The Work You Can’t Measure
Sat down with a coffee day, and I felt it — that deep, tired ache in your chest when you’ve done everything right and still feel like it’s not enough. So today, I want to speak about a different path yet linkI rarely speak of the situation with social services here, . Nor about court… Continue reading The Work You Can’t Measure
Root Cause
I have held back from here of recent, as I have tried to find my own path, refusing to sit in negative memory, refusing to be dragged back to the bad places, I couldn't work out why I was back there, my childhood traumas already dealt with, how else had I got through life without… Continue reading Root Cause
peacefullyerratic.com 