When you’re lost inside, whilst outwardly the smiles are perfected,
When you struggle to know which way to turn,
When you want to ground, but nothing allows,
When the fog thickens, yet your mind is clear,
When you just want the rivers to run,
When you just want to hide from the world,
Distractions, so many distractions to keep going,
Every day a new goal, a new completion of getting through,
Hiding behind a person that no longer knows who she is,
Communication outside of the safe zone one of discomfort,
Reflections a reminder of the path your walking,
Memories telling of the person you are deep inside,
The self loathing and hatred building every second,
Confusion, whilst living through someone else’s needs,
Never knowing what is next expected of you,
Yet waiting, constantly waiting,
Will this ever end, when will this stop,
I don’t know how much more I can take
Please let the rivers run, please let it flow without pain.