Reactions to Actions

Its funny how poeple assume your own reactions and actions by their own opinions of you. When the reality often is so much futher from the truth.

With no blame laid other then that of my own emotions over riding logic, it sometimes take a split second to wake up to what caused your own reactions and actions.
No where near the point of what people wish to assume and pretend they know.

When you dont feel good enough, when you live in fear, fear of losing all you have love and want. You lash out verbally mentally emotionally, protect yourself before you need that protection.

Its those moments of time, that build and build, until finally it all blows, by which point. Its too late. The damage is done.

Can time turn and change, can wounds be healed, can emotions be calmed, can the futures moments be different to that of the past, or will history keep repeating itself.
I will learn to manage and control my own reactions to actions towards me, I will learn to be stronger. I just hold my hand heart to those above me and pray that we are forward to a new and better path.