Double Whammy

I have often wondered why i react in the way i do, to sometimes the most ordinary situations, situations that normal people can respond to easily. Its hard to relearn behaviours when you dont understand them in the first instance

Recently I posted about a book, a book on trauma survivors and C-PTSD work book. It was recomended by my therapist, but not one to be done alone. So clever ole me ordered one at first chance. I am reading it a couple of pages a day, but not doing much but highlighting where i find areas that i want to explore more.

I now wish i had the book with me, but i dont, but so far i am learning that for those with trauma your reactions are not the same, emotions arent always simply an emotion and that sometimes your brain goes offline….

Double whammy, a emotion can be a memory, no imagery, no flash backs, just raw emotions flowing through your body, you may not realise it, but its happening, as you react to this emotion. If you are triggered by something simple, as a normal person would, lets say, get annoyed, then brush it off and carry on. A truama brain reacts differently, they will get annoyed, then will be triggered and thats when emotion comes into play.

Double whammy…

I may not be explaining this well, but to me this explains why, if something stresses me out, my reaction to the situation to a normal person, seems over the top

I guess this is were learning your brain, and understanding this reaction is how you start to relearn behaviours, i am leaving that part to the therapist though…. No self teachings here. Just trying to be knowledgeable

Am i happy to finally be on this path to recovery, i wish i could answer that, but i cant, apprehension fills me, not knowing what to expect, what is going to happen, yet i am finally after years of waiting, at the first solid step. No what ifs no buts or maybes, i am there.

It may not be done officially for a while, but even this book, will help with an insight into what lays ahead.