I did a thing

I actually did a thing, It took 3 anxiety attacks
It took tears, but I did a thing,
I didn’t give up, yet I did, then didn’t
Now my hair sits a ton lighter,
washed and brushed,
countless inches shorter,

Because I didn’t give up

I did another thing too,
I had a birthday cake,
I had cocktails and a meal in a restaurant,
that last sentence, I have never done with the husband,
Date nights like this seem to have never crossed his mind,
Nor have birthday cakes, I know I speak of never wanting a day,
But maybe I feel sometimes It was my defence before I could be let down,
Stop the feeling of being forgotten before it could hit in,
Yet this year, I did a thing, and it changed,
I even got a birthday present

I am emotionally and physically exhausted,
I don’t wish to type much,
But for once a positive post,

I broke my barrier,
My leg and arm pays the price,
but for once a price that is worth it

Because I did a thing