Thank You

The last couple of years have not been easy, and by no means are we back on a normal path now, and potentially won’t be for a long time, thing’s aren’t great in our situation, but it’s time I turned a negative into a positive.

I write this post with a thank you, despite all the hell that you have put us through.

When we moved into this house in 2016, I felt at home there, a quiet cul de sac,
just a row of 5 houses, I expected all to be OK.
Yet what we moved into was a volatile street, pick and chose who you like,
Ignore and insult those you don’t.
Knowing it could change daily,
Seeing one home *owning the street*
We soon learnt to tread carefully, one family falling out, screaming at us,
She would have us moved, she didn’t want the likes of us around here.
We discovered that most in the cul de sac had grown up together,
Everyone knew everyone from some where, privacy was lacking.

Last summer though, for once, the cul de sac all got on, a fun summer,
Then it turned, a simple misunderstanding, suddenly my family are the freaks,
My mental health a joke, my children’s attitude awful,
I‘m nasty and a bully, I am shit on someones shoe, Yet I did no actual wrong

Ousted, hated, loathed, we had to purchase CCTV for our own protection,
As walking out my front door I tense up, ready for your stares,
As I look around ready for the next insult, or insinuated comment,

I am not innocent, but I only give what I get given,
I will shout back, or say words that are deemed as unkind,
I do not seek out this though, I would rather a quiet life,
I struggle in the house, a lot due to CPTSD, a lot due to other reasons,
But also because of the outside the 4 walls that cage us within this hell

It’s been horrid, its hell,

Yet I want to thank you for forcing your way into my home assaulting me
Yet I want to thank you for standing nose to nose threatening me,
Yet I want to thank you for screaming abuse at me,
Yet I want to thank you for putting my family through hell,
Yet I want to thank you for being a cul de sac of *friends* who can’t stand outsiders,

Because whilst I have not enjoyed my time here,
Whilst you can now sit and state that you have won,
Whilst you can crack open the beer and say thank god,
You will still be here, in this cul de sac, sat out the front day after day,
You still still be vile in your attitude,
You will still be rotting in this town,

Whilst you celebrate our driving from from this cul de sac when it comes to the final time,
Never to look back,
We shall celebrate a new future, a new hope, a new path,

As we move to new pastures, As we have been given a chance,
A chance I once could only dream of, but for once, dreams have come true

Thanks to your disgusting behaviour, I am going home,
Home to friends and family, support and kindness,
I am taking my own family, to a bigger & Better home,
A stones throw from beautiful Cornish beaches,
I will finally get my therapy,
My oldest son will finally be placed into a specialist school to help with his needs,
My oldest will get her surf board, The other two will finally live fear free.

Finally we can be a family once again

PS I write all this, with this, beside me, and saved on drives,
Are CCTV footage of the assault, CCTV footage of you flashing at the CCTV,
Phone footage of arguments, phone footage of you assaulting other people,
Police logs and over a dozen crime reference numbers
All can be released within time,
For I say all this with no fear,

nearly 5 yrs ago, when I posted this, I never thought it would come true ❤